10.05.2012

october it is.

blog,I betrayed you once again. been so caught up with life that I don't even have time to ramble over poor suicide attempts anymore. hence, I didn't even have sufficient amount of time needed for me to mourne over past or dying relationships which I have a handful of. I guess college and the band thing were pretty much a good distraction lately. though , I am still a hopeless romantic by heart. occasionally I would scavenge through stolen opportunities, in order to have a peek of my potential beau. I am pathetic in that sense, I know.so eager and desperate. but I only look and I barely touch. even so, I often dispose of them like yesterday's trash.


two days from now, I will be performing at some random show. a year ago, none of these would make sense. especially with me being in a band.

can't say if I'm grateful because I am still restless as fuck.I want to go forth until the day I am embraced for the very raw poet I intend to be. cultured and pretentious. and flawless too perhaps.


I now waste my insomniac hours watching re-runs of films that I carefully selected from imdb. considering my laptop is ambushed again, I have no way  to be further productive as a so called graphic designing freelancer.I guess I have to make do with collecting cigerette money through the band thing.

I want to tour; that's my shabby way of saying I want to travel expense-free by doing what I love most, singing.I am a hobo.end.



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